the shape is round and is caled circle

i have less than 8 mins before i post it today.
1st day of the day i want to write and i have a roomie who is not getting sleep and is disturbing me.
and i have hardly slept in the past 72 hours... totally 7-8 hrs...

brain is jammed with so many things. i have lost everything in 2013.
all that came to me, all that i earned, all that i loved, all people those who loved me. i lost every single person. i have become a loner.

vikas and deepan are there still. and syatchi is there without trusting me. other than that my family is thinking am living for them, which is a complete lie. why am i living? i dont even have a clue.

i know i cant take my life off, i have tried it at very young age and i was rejected that luxury or prison.

i am trying to live this life. i have never known to make decisions. even the simplest ones go away from me like one hell of a soccer ball.

whatever it is, i have made my moves, i have faced the consequences, i have loved, cried, laughed, travelled, lived, enjoyed, fucked, get fucked, get my happiness screwed, lost, won, irritated, depressed and felt many more unexplainanble feelings... all that has hapened to me.
now that all gives me a feel that i lived...


i am starting everything from scratch, to earn my life, to earn my living and everything that has to be earned. all that i earned dint come with the feel that it has to be earned. it just came to me for the work i did...

i am a good hard worker... smartness i dont know how much tribute i can take of that attribute...
but yes, i am gonna work my way out in this road, and lets see where ait takes me and what it gives me...

mother nature knows what exactly is my need, i just shouldnt fuck up things more and more like i usually do, other than that, my first day of this year comes to an end....