i have seen 4 movies and nearly 10/11 episodes of series today...
the whole time i was doing this, my mind is running in the background, one thought, only one, a single thought - how depressing living beings we have become!
as a matter of act, any living organism will do the same, we are not the only ones that is destroying the world. do you know that? if someone is telling that you are destroying the earth and not leaving anything behind for your future generations, then it is bogus. they don't know what they are talking. am sure. even if they know, they will not tell. because that means, they will have to agree that what they are talking is complete nonsense.
imagine you have a house that you live in - you regularly clean it, stay in it, do your usuals. now if the same house is left by itself - come after a year and see the house. what condition it will be in? come after 10 years? come after 20 years? Has the rest of the living organisms left the house for your return intact ? or is it occupied already by them and is ruled by them? don't call it a ruined house, please, i beg you. because, that is where you all go wrong. it is their house and they are keeping it the way they want. they have their relatives, future generations, plan for next year and so on. it is just not for humans. so don't.
this is what everyone misses. we have had a farm, in which we had built a house with so many dreams, love, plans, carelessness, immaturity , stupidity, that we had to leave it after staying there just for few days. after 11 years, come to witness it. you will know what i mean.
our dreams have not changed, our loves have. our future has not changed, but our view towards it. one of our dear friend followed our suit and is in depression now and is going back to his regular job.
i am in a job myself for the fourth time. i am a failure three times. wrong decisions at every turn. no one is to be blamed, but the vision was like that. you become successful when your vision is in right place. is my vision in right place now? at this point i think so, like i thought three other times. who knows, same me might write something later to pin point this past me as wrong or say right, that all is matter of time. one thing that i have been not worried, am still happy about is, the journey. it has been rewarding. at every turn, there have been so many beautiful beings, forces, that have supported, guided, cheered, pushed, threw, hit, encouraged, raged at me. am thankful about it.
the truth is, whatever i did, do or will do will not change anything. if you don't agree, then am sorry, you are wasting your time more by reading this, even though i know you will not listen to that or anything. if that is the case, there have been great many sages, writers, pandits, gurus, philosophers who have told so much more things again and again, still we are not able to trust ourselves, friends, family that we need pet animals with us and call them babies not knowing that we are actually torturing them by keeping them in an unnatural habitat than where they belong to. think about it once if that is even possible.
how many people can take their phone and call talk to anyone they wish to at any time. how many have folks who really loves you unconditionally. how many of you love unconditionally. who all can be happy doing nothing. who all can just walk away at this very moment from whatever they are doing and not worry about tomorrow. who can look at a stranger and ask for a help without hesitation but be assured that they will be helped. how many are thinking about their enemies and the planning revenge.
yet, we talk about humanity, as if humans are better living organisms than others. all are creativity is to prove that, ain't it?
someday, someone is going to take all this writing and show in much wider medium and wait and watch the comments that would come at that time.
with social media's growth, internet's a availability, we can reach anyone in any corner of the world. yet, what do we use it for? we have so many rich countries, yet there are so many poor ones. why? what is all your '-isms' doing to this inequality? why is it called right and left? right and wrong? are we all not here to just live? why so much fuss about it?
why should you be so important? why is it that there is a class needed? why is there premium things and substandard items? as i write this and ask so many questions as usual i know that i should run away again for the fourth time. it is brhamamuhurtam now. never would it be better to do it. should i?
for the past year i have earned so much and still i feel i have nothing with me. am always signing the same old panja pattu! i know that i should not do it, yet, i do it. not because that i portray some sad old story to get some sympathies or escape people from asking money from (though sometimes it is true), it is mainly because my needs/expectations have become more than it used to be or needs to be and always leaves me unsettled. my mind always has a calculation running about profit and loss. though am good with numbers, i always have problem in applying it in real life. a big reason am behind too many curves in my financial life.
there is no use with my philosophy, sulking nor anything, this is the route that this world will go through. Did i think that people will stay happy being hunters and gatherers!!! no, never. we are all lost in our own identity. trying to save it one way or another, we are drowning ourselves along with others.
where it will end, i don't know. but there is always an end for everything.
like dark knight, you die as a hero or live long to become the villain.
my dad has become a villain and my grand mother is a heroine always.
i have understood that. after which now both are just my ancestors. fellow human beings. someone i have had the chance to meet and know a bit. that is it. nothing more or less.
for past 2 years i have been in search of a job after i got my current job 2 years ago. i told myself so, many reasons. now i got a new job and am writing all this. you see, you always know what you want, but can't hide for long. can't cheat yourselves for too long.
i have 93+7 sharing now... would like to make it 7+93 soon... then only whatever i have told above will make sense... atleast to me.
